HEADING UP TO THE HOSPITAL IN A FEW MINUTES...

We are about to head up to the hospital to get a new lump checked out... very scared that Raymond's cancer has returned.  I am praying hard that it is not back. Can use all of the prayers we can get, so if you are seeing this, please bend God's ear on this. Raymond's disposition is not strong to be able to go through this again. He has already said that if the cancer is back, he'll just let it take him and he's not fighting. He's only 25 and that is the worst possible attitude to have. Cancer cells thrive on negativity and he's got that in abundance!! We're going up to Genesis... I'll keep everyone posted... PRAY, PLEASE!!!!

Tried harder...

I posted on Marines facebook page asking for help to get the message to Clayton about his brother. He probably already knows and just hasn't responded, but I just really wish that side of the family would put their differences with Raymond aside long enough to give him peace of mind so that he isn't dwelling on past mistakes. I want his mind clear, especially now. He is worried about the area where his surgery was done. Need to get his ID so that he can get in to the doc to get that checked. Until then, he'll keep worrying... I know from personal experience that untreated bipolar disorder is off-putting and that people disown you from their lives once you've done or said something you regret, but now is not the time to hold grudges!! This young man has just went through a whole summer of chemo, fighting a very aggressive form of cancer and his paternal side of the family did not even acknowledge his suffering, with the exception of his Grandma Young. They all have the link to this blog, yet have chosen to ignore it. I am just praying that it has not come back and that we are not headed for another four months of torture for Raymond. Please pray that the Holy Spirit move his paternal side of the family to compassion and understanding....

Well, I tried...

So, I sent letters to Raymond's dad and to his brother. No response from his dad, and he doesn't answer when Raymond calls him. I got the letter to Clayton back "attempted not known" and it was sent to his address to his unit on base, so that tells me he refused it. Also, I had someone message his stepmother from their fb page... She recieved a message from the stepmom asking who she was. She replied back with the reason for contacting her and now she's blocked from the stepmom's account. Nice. No matter how much I am estranged from my other son, Clayton, I could never stop loving him. Ray Sr., on the other hand, won't even swallow his pride despite a cancer scare for his namesake. Knowing his mother and father, I know he was raised with better morales than that. Shame on some people! Well, they all have this link and are able to follow Raymond's progress, should they ever grow a heart...