Busy Day Today....

Not a whole lotta time to post today.  It's Tuesday which, in my household, means homework and deadline day.  Raymond is quietly playing his video games while I try to keep my animals from bothering me while I try to study.  The problem with that is A.) my animals are spoiled and expect 24/7 attention and B.) they are mischievious and are always getting into stuff (ok, by "they", I really mean GiGi in this instance, but I didn't want to point fingers and hurt his feelings! lol). Gigi is really something of a "techno-kitty".  He wants to sit on the arm of the couch as I type on the computer and bat at the moving "mouse" with his paw.  I wonder if he's thinking "now, THERE'S a better mousetrap!" 

As you can tell, I'm in a pretty good mood today.  That's because so is Raymond.  My moods, nine times out of ten, are reflections of how he is acting on any given day.  I suppose that's true of most moms, though.  A point to ponder, do we lose ourselves and our own individuality when we become mothers, or does becoming mothers define us as individuals? It's a thought that I am struggling with now that I may be facing losing that distinction. 

Oh, that thought just jarred my memory!  I need to go and make phone calls to Raymond's doctors and get him going on his appointments!!  

Bye for today... As always, thanks for listening....
chirp... chirp... chirp... (that's the sound of crickets.  judging by the amount of comments I receive daily, they are the only ones who are actually "listening" at all)

Another Day in the Life...

Every day is a new beginning only I never know if it'll be a good day or bad day.  Raymond's moods are more erratic now than ever.  He's always had the anger issues and the constant bouts of depression, but now they are more frequent.  That's one way that I can tell he is nervous about the whole ordeal. 

I showed him this blog today and, while he said he likes it, he also said it made him tear up.  Those who know him, know that he is very uncomfortable showing those kinds of emotions. He gets that from me.  I can not cry in front of people without feeling mortified and embarrassed. 

The blog page keeps giving me a warning that it's experiencing an error when trying to save this post.  It's just another issue of the day today, which hasn't been that great of a day.  So, I am going to copy this and paste it into a alternate page in case it doesn't save. I had issues with my homework tonight too, so it might be that my computer is the one with issues, but my frazzled nerves just can't handle it.

I think I'll add a little humor to the post today.  I think Raymond could use a smile and I know for a fact that I can stand to chuckle myself...

THIS IS HOW i FELT THIS MORNING...
not entierly sure the feeling passed.

I sure could use some words of encouragement

today...  

I think I need to add a playlist to this blog somehow.

For now, I'll Just insert the playlist in this post...Enjoy!

Jump to Video Link

Recipes: Tips for Better Health

Recipes: Tips for Better Health  (click title to view blog)

I just found this awesome blog site.  Looks like lots of yummy recipes.  Also has a post about cancer-fighting foods. I recommend this blog to anyone who likes good food and also those who wish to eat healthier.

Enjoy the blog, but I don't recommend going there if you're hungry!  

This was the last thing I expected to hear...

My son was diagnosed with testicular cancer on January 17, 2013.  I was completely and totally shocked.  He is only 24 years old.  He had surgery to remove the mass on January 25th. He's feeling a little better.  He still has pain, but not as intolerable as it was. He is trying to stay in high spirits, since we don't have the final diagnosis (benign or malignant).  He has an extremely good sense of humor and that is helping him to keep up a good front.  Being his mom, I know that inside he is fearful and unsure of what will happen next.  We can only take it a day at a time, pray, and put it in God's hands. 
Although the surgeon did say that it appears to be malignant, we're still keeping optimistic and praying that it is benign.  See, fibroid tumors run in my family so there is still a chance that the mass is no more than a fibroid or fatty tumor.  The surgeon assured us that he removed it all.  The only reason he would need to have chemo or radiation is if the biopsy reveals a malignancy.  *Fingers-crossed and eyes to Heaven*....

Here's my Sonshine, just this past summer, working hard to build me a pond....

  
And here he is being silly, like usual...

What makes this especially hard on him (as if the illness itself isn't hard enough), is that I called his Grandma Young (Jean Young of Ellwood City PA) to have her relay the message to his dad, who he hasn't spoken to in about 2 years.  His dad didn't even bother to contact him back.  They have been at odds for years, and his dad pretty much disowned him. Raymond hasn't lived his life the way his father thinks he should have, nor has he accomplished anything that they'd write about in the history books, so he's not worthy of being called "son" by Raymond A. Young,Sr. Despite this, Raymond still loves his dad and would like to have a chance to make things right and repair the relationship before it's too late.  What a sad testimonial to a young man's life when his own father can't swallow his pride and bury the hatchet to reunite with his son, given the circumstances.  Well, all I know is that Raymond and I have our differences, but this is one parent who will NEVER give up on him no matter what he says or does.  He is flesh of my flesh, blood of my blood and I'm very proud to call him my son! Life is too short to hold grudges against a loved one.